Who am I? #4

It’s strange how life works. The reason why I say this is because of a moment that has happened to me this week. So I have been going to college since 2014. I have received my A.A. Degree in 2016. After that I was a bit interested in web programming so I decided to pursue a A.S. Degree in that field. I took many classes and this spring I was going to finish the degree but I couldn’t. The reasons why are few.. one of them is I started to realize that I strongly dislike it and it was making me depressed.. I would stay up late doing projects and I would waste weekends doing projects. I started to become sad and numb. And then the other reason was a mistake I made with the school (don’t want to get into it at all). And these two reasons made drop all the classes and re-evaluate my life.

See I love school and I love learning. So I began to think about what do I truly love to learn? So I picked psychology and English. This summer I’m almost done with two of the prerequisite classes. One of them is developmental psychology and I am loving it! I discovered that Erik Erikson the famous psychologist created this stage that begins in young adult hood and goes on for the rest of your life which is the stage where you try to find yourself. Also a key question that he says is the name of the blog!!!! Who am I? Once I heard this my mind was blown and I got goosebumps. Why? Because it’s beautiful to feel like your life is making sense for that moment.

So now I’m beginning my journey and trying to see if this is the right path for me and so far it’s making a lot of sense and I’m happy learning this information. I have been through a lot of ups and downs with college education and trying to figure out what to do for a career (we all have). It’s odd because we were discussing the subject of love and relationships and that is a subject that I have been passionate about since I was in elementary. I loved love and relationships and helping people with theirs and finding love. Even now with my girlfriend that I have been dating for almost 7 years, I am totally interested in our own love and relationship. I’m not sure what this means but I feel like it has a meaning to it.

Now back to what I said in the beginning of this post “It’s strange how life works”. So I have told you I been in college (Seminole state) for awhile taking different classes that interest me to figure out what i enjoy and hate. And it just so happened that my little brother (19yrs old) is now applying to the same college and starting this fall. So I start to head out of the parking lot after class and there he is parked ready to sign up. It just stopped me and made me think.. like wow all these different things happened to me and all this time has past and never in my life did I think I would be at college at the same time as my little brother and then to see him the same time as I’m heading out. I know it probably does sound major and I do see him everyday and hang out with him and my family (both of us still live at home) and also my girlfriend meets up with us everyday. But for some reason this moment really was special to me.

Thank you for reading and I just want to say it feels good to write about these moments and concepts that are happening in my life. It is truly amazing that I live in a time where I can write and have people read it. Very humbled. Thank you for reading.

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2 thoughts on “Who am I? #4

  1. I so enjoyed reading this Anthony. So special to have your little brother going to college with you. Life is full of these sweet moments. College is the best place to figure out what and who you are. Enjoy the journey.

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