Last Monday (8/20/18) was the first day of me attending a University (University of Central Florida). I had mixed feelings about my experience. My first thought was that it felt like the Disney world for Education. Their was students, workers, professors, and just tons of different people walking, skating, and driving all around the campus. There is tons of restaurants, and beautiful buildings all around the campus. It is truly a very unique experience. Then I started to attend classes and feel out the students and professors. The both professors that I have started to stress that if you don’t get a Masters degree you won’t find a job that will make you happy, or earn you money. I was a bit frustrated of how untrue that statement is. I am studying Psychology, and I’am very interested in the subject, well I have been since I was small. I look at life psychological every single day, all day. I love analyzing myself, others, nature, books, art, and so on. So I’am curious on what I will discover on this educational journey. Now, these are some of the positive things that has happened. Some of the negative things or I guess more unsure things are I’am not confident in my major. Also Im not very confident in why I’m in school in the first place? I love learning, and love going to classes, but why am I truly there? Well to answer that question I definitely want to have the achievement of getting a bachelors degree. A bachelors degree is something that I definitely want to obtain in my life. Now what kinda job do I want? I have no clue, and that is what is stressing me out. I will be sitting in class thinking there is no way I want to be a psychologist, but I love the concepts so much. Also during class I at times start to fantasize about creating music for a living, and how comfortable that would make me feel. I don’t know.. I am very confused with that concept at the moment. Also it kinda gets me down seeing all these people around me, and still feeling a bit lonely inside. I try to talk to people but they seem too busy or they try to hard or they are just too busy on their phones. I won’t give-up on my pursuit to find real friends or relationships. I know that they are out there. How do I know? Because I have a real friend and relationship with my girlfriend (Sara), my dad, mom, and two brothers. I know what it feels like and there is no way that I can’t find more true relationships/connections with people. There are billions of humans out there.
Now this week would be only my second week in this university so my opinion will probably start to change as I journey my way through this fall semester. Also I would like to state that I am very excited to meet new people and experience new moments. Since I have turned 21 years old (I’m 22 right now) I have completely erased all my high school friends (except 2 one of them is my girlfriend who i have been dating for 6 years and the other is a friend that has been in my life since i was 4) and I have deleted all my social media, and also took out almost everyone and everything that has had a negative affect on me. With that being said I have a clean slate, and I am ready to create a new journey of relationships with people. A lot has been said on this blog post and I just want it to be clear that these are my true concepts and feelings of my life right now, and that they will most definitely change over time. Thank you for reading and remember that we are growing everyday, and no one is every the same person they were yesterday.
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